You’re Not 15 Anymore!!

5 05 2008

So, at the party I’ve mentioned that an ex-boyfriend was going to be DJing…we’ll call him Mark. Now Mark and I dated when I was 15 & 16, he was 14 & 15…we meet when I was working at a boyscout camp. I was a lifeguard and he worked in the dinning hall…during the first month we dated he went away to a different camp for a week, during that week I kissed another guy..the guy was 18…I was enthralled by him…he was daring and dangerous (every girl has a story of at least one guy like that)…the guy looked good too…had shoulder length hair…and just, I don’t know…he was a blossoming Fabio in my eyes 🙂 But Mark found out about, and yes I was truthful…somewhat…he thinks all we did was kiss, when in fact it went a lot further…but, why rub salt in a wound, right? Anyways…that was during either a June or July, so we continued dating until Februrary, about a week before Valentine’s he decides he can’t stand it anymore that I was unfaithful to him…to be honest, it was good that it ended, but I was still devastated.

The relationship was very unhealthy…by nature, as I’ve mentioned, I’m a very very private person. I don’t open up to people well….he was always pushing me to share stuff…and to talk about everything…well in the end, it was almost to the point where I couldn’t think or feel for myself…he wanted to be a part of everything…I lost me, trying to be what he wanted.

So, it took a year or so for us to actually communicate…but we moved on and become pretty good friends..we still chat online & email…he’s on my facebook friends list…but there is something about him that just really gets on my nerves…whenever we talk on the phone or any time I go back home & we hang out…I finally figured out what it was…he has not changed at all since we were 15…I’ve changed almost 100%…ecspecially from the person he wanted…he still dresses the same (in fact, I’ve seen him in some of the same shirts he wore when we were 15)…he talks the same…he’s horrible at judging people…they are bored out of their minds and think he’s a complete idiot, yet, he keeps talking…and he likes to talk a lot…mostly about himself…or stuff that relates to himself…no matter what you talk about, somehow it has to come back to him…

In fact, we’re having the party for my grandmother, and there are two elderly ladies there, and they’re sitting and having dinner with my mom…and Mark comes and sits with them, a little while later I’m walking by the table and he’s talking about getting drunk…these are 60-70 year old ladies, church going ladies, anti-drinking ladies and he’s talking about getting drunk??? I mean come on…have a little respect…

So…J loves to harrass me whenever I see Mark, about how I’m still secretly in love with him…J knows it annoys me…he knows Mark annoys me…and I really just want to say to Mark, “You know, we’re not 15 anymore, grow up already!” …kind of hard to fit that into polite dinner conversation, huh?